Typical Morning Rush of He and She

Morning rush.

He - wakes up, showers, dress, powder, perfume, brush hair, change lil' one's diaper, brings lil one downstairs, sweet time breakfast, starts car engine

She - wakes up, breastfeed lil one, sorts ebm, wash last night's bottlemilk, rush to shower, dress, pumping session (managed only 6 oz coz of lack of time n nature's call), stuck in toilet (may due to yesterday's kenduri - unusual occation), tidy up bedrooms, collects all the dirty diapers and throw them in dustbin (he left in on the bed), get lil one's bag and stuff ready, store this morning's pumped ebm, wash the breastpump equipments, wipe them up with tissue to speed up the drying process, get the thermal milk bag ready (make sure ice packs, breastpump , and at least 4 cleaned storage bottles inside), grab whatever hijab she can, brings all the bags inside car WHILE wearing the hijab.

IT IS 8.15AM.

He - giving the ' you are SUPER LATE look'

She - ......

Note that despite the OBVIOUS 7 vs 2 lines, SHE misses to powder(or make up), perfume, brush hair, breakfast.....

Even without the unusual nature's call, this is the regular morning rush of He and She.

P/s : thank you for changing the diaper after I instructed you to.

Akaun Tabung Haji dan SSPN Alya

Assalamualaikum.
Sekarang jam 11, masih belum sampi UKM lagi. 2 jam ni urusan banyak dihabiskan di bank. Pukul 9 dh berada di bank islam bangi tapi malangnya pekerja sedang mengambil wang dri mesin atm, jdi bank belum dibuka untuk orng ramai. Terpaksa berdiri-diri di luar sehingga setengah jam kemudiannya. Niat nak buka akaun tabung haji untuk Alya. Senang bila bila free boleh masukkan wang dalam akaun simpanan tabung haji alya. Semua untuk masa depan Alya juga. Tapi kecewa lagi bila pegawai bank mengatakan bahawa akaun tabung haji untuk anak hnya boleh dibuka di cawangan tabung haji sendiri. Untuk tidak menjadikan penantian aku sia-sia, aku mengambil borang untuk mendaftarkan akaun SSPN untuk Alya. Mungkin agak awal kerana Alya baru 2 bulan lebih, but the sooner the better kan orang kata. Demi jaminan masa depan Alya juga.

Selesai urusan, aku bergegas ke Kompleks Diamond, Bangi di mana terletaknya Pejabat Tabung
Haji cawangan. Selesai mengisi borang dan mengambil nombor, aku menanti sekitar 15minit sebelum nomborku dipanggil. Sekali lagi aku kecewa apabila dikhabarkan aku dimestikan memiliki akaun indipendent sebelum boleh membuka akaun baru untuk Alya. Akaun tabung haji ku sekarang masih di bawah nama ibu. Hai ibu, dah 27 tahun umur ni dah beranak sorang pun, masih letak akaun saya bersama dengan ibu? Kecewa nampaknya penantian sia-sia. Sudahlah pejabat tabung haji tidak bnyak macam cawangan bank utama yang lain.

Nampaknya aku harus menyelesaikan urusan akaun bersama aku dan ibu dahulu sebelum boleh membuka akaun untuk anakku Alya. Harap-harapnya urusan tersebut boleh selesai dalam minggu ini juga. Duit sedekah orang ramai untuk Alya harus segera disimpan dalam akaunnya sendiri. Selepas ada akaun, suamiku boleh la buat potongan gaji bulanan untuk simpanan di akaun Alya. Semoga perancangan jangka panjang kami untuk masa depan Alya dipermudahkan urusannya oleh Yang Maha Kuasa.

Beamforming

Assalamualaikum, 

Boleh ke Beamforming atas pavement?Concrete pavement. Airport taxiway. 

"untuk dilihat "

"keep in view"

Moga Allah permudahkan segala.

Amin

I Delivered a Baby Girl - Part 1

Salam and hello gentle readers.

I feel sorry for my poor blog, I have been busy with my life and neglecting my own diary. I wish I can write everyday just like I did in 2009 and 2010. As years went by, my blogposts decrease , become less and less every year. Oh it is still January, so I can make this wish as one of my 2014 resolution - to write more and more in my blog. About my newborn Alya, my study thingy, business thingy, life thingy, random posts and whatever I feel like blogging. =)

Okay back to the main topic. I delivered a beautiful baby girl, my heir, on 27th of November 2013. It was 2 days past my due date. I was told that I would deliver on 25th of November 2013. But deep inside I know from the very beginning that the due date was not exactly true, which is because I do not know the date of my last period. So 25th November 2013 was just a doctor's estimation. 

However on Sunday 24th of November, I did feel a painful contraction. It was a mild one in the morning, but getting stronger in the afternoon. I was at Taman Cempaka at that time, my mother in law quickly asked my husband to bring me to hospital right away, afraid of me delivering in the house. hehe. We waited until 4, and then went back to Taman Kosas to get my stuff. my mom said I did not look like I was in pain. Yeah actually she was right. The intensity of my pain decrease, I noticed that the contraction is irregular. But we went to the hospital anyway. At 6pm, we were already in front of the hospital when suddenly I felt ike I wasnt ready. I really did not feel like going inside. My pain was gone completely. I asked my husband to haave dinner first at McDonald located across the hospital. He was worried, of course, almost unwilling to fulfill my demand but I beg him saying I cannot eat McDonalds during my confinement period so that would be the last time and it worked. I ordered Big Mac, showing how huge my desire was hahaha. After dinner I felt totally fine, the pain totally went away and I asked my husband to return back home. OF COURSE, he refuse. haha. He drove me to the hospital back, and I was asked to went in PAC (Patient Assessment Centre) to check my condition while husband went to register at the counter.

Inside the PAC room, I was asked to undress and changed to hospital attire, leaving only bra. They wrapped me (I learned that it was CTG- to check my baby's heartbeat and my uterus contraction). After a while a nurse came and said she's going to examine my cervix opening. Okay, it was when I realized that it was the famous 'seluk" everybody kept talking about. She inserted something or her own fingers- I do not know-, inside my vagina and yes, it was painful. Bearable, but painful. I remember she said "when you are pushing later in the labor, do not lift your butt okay, you might cause wide tear if you lift it". I was only 1 cm dilated at that time so she said most probably I would have to go home. Several minutes later a young doctor came in. I figured she should be the housemen office. She looked awkward, a little bit slow (she asked me the same questions repeatedly as she forgot my answer as she keyed in my info in the computer). and owh, she typed realllyyy slow too. Not something I expected as a doctor should work fast. I saw she was being ordered around by older nurses, and she just kept quite. After half an hour passed just to key in my general info, she said she was going to check my cervix opening. Surprised, I told her the nurse examined like, an hour ago and it was only 1 cm. But she said that was nurse, as a doctor, she has to check it too. I just have to allow her =(/ The second examination showed I was 2cm dilated. She said I might have to go home. But first I have to wait for Medical Officer to come and check our condition. So I was allowed to go out of the PAC room and waited together with my husband in that pink attire.

Several minutes later I saw an Indian medical officer and she started calling us one by one to get in a small room to be examined. It was a room where they did a scan to check on the baby's position. As I went in, she said she does not need to do a scan on me because I just did that sonography scan last Tuesday. So she said she just need to check on my cervical opening. Surprised again, I shrieked and told her I have been examined twice, the latest was by a house officer. But she replied that was that house officer's, and she need to check by herself too. I just nodded and had to agree with her. But during her 'seluk', I did not experience any pain as she did very gently and everything went smooth. I was still 2 cm open and she decided I need to go home first. so I changed back to my dress and we went back home that night about 10.30 pm, got laugh at by my mom and my little brother. haha. What an experienced. 

This write up about false alarm is too long isn't it? I guess the moment I delivered had to be shifted into next post. So please wait for my part 2 story ya. ^_^

Menjelang Aidilfitri 2013

Salam hai hello pembaca budiman!

Tinggal lagi enam hari je nak raya. Raya tahun ni berbadan dua. Nasib baik selera makan dah ada balik. Boleh la menjamu rendang, ketupat, lontong dan sebagainya. Tak sabar pulak rasanya. hehe.

Sepanjang bulan puasa ni, aku memang berterima kasih sangat kat Encik Suami sebab menyediakan kelengkapan puasa dengan penuh dedikasi dan tanggungjawab, memandangkan keadaan sang isteri yang mengandung kononnya dan terkedek-kedek melakukan semua aktiviti. Masak untuk puasa ni, ada la beberapa kali je boleh dikira dengan jari. Selebihnya beli lauk-pauk, atau berbuka rumah parents dan in-laws, serta berbuka di luar (pun cuma 2,3 kali). Sahur pulak Encik Suami dengan penuh tanggungjawab bangun menyiapkan (memanaskan-jika ada) lauk lebih berbuka dan buat air milo panas. Aku cuma turun makan jer. Kalau takde lauk-lauk lebih, kami makan roti bakar atau koko crunch jer. Itupun disediakan oleh Encik Suami jugak. Alhamdulillah, dia rajin membantu apa-apa yang patut kat dapur especially kalau basuh-basuh pinggan. Semoga amal kebaikan kamu Encik Suami diberi ganjaran setimpal dari Allah yer sayang. You made me love you even more *blush*

Sepanjang kehamilan setakat ni, tak boleh bayang jugak kalau takdenya encik abang. Mau terkontang-kanting dibuatnya. Entah-entah dah berputus asa. Encik Suami sangat sangat membantu dan dengan penuh sabar melayan sang isteri yang pelbagai ragam. Menjaga rumah yang memang aku dah tak kuasa nak ambil tahu lagi buat masa ni. Maklumlah, mengandung.. mengada lebih. Takpela, abang layan la kite, masa ni jer sayang..9 bulan lebih kurang. Lepas ni saya layan abang pulak selama 90 tahun atau lebih (kalau panjang umur). hehe.. Anyway terima kasih daun keladi buat Encik Suami atas layanan tip top beliau. Lain kali kalau mengandung lagi, layan lah macam ni lagi. :) 

Untuk raya tahun ni, bajet kami memang takde lah. Disebabkan belum dapat duit scholarship lagi (borang-borang aku tak hantar lagi..huhu teruknyeee). Maka baju-baju raya aku recycle ibu punye je. Berapa pasang entah ibu bagi hari tu.. Ada 3,4 pasang kot, semua yang ibu dah taknak pakai lagi. Aku pulak muat sebab perut dah mancung ke depan. Kalau tak, mesti la tak muat kan. Baju semua tu cantik-cantik, baru-baru lagi, ok lah kan. Encik Suami pulak pakai baju melayu tahun lepas je jugak. Cuma beli t-shirt dia sikit dan jeans sehelai. T-shirt dia yang sedia ada sikit sangat dan semua dah lusuh, kalau tak lusuh pun, dah tak muat. Tu lah, siapa suruh membesar dengan pantas. huhu.. 

Tahun lepas beraya di Korea. Tahun ni tak sabar nak beraya di kampung dengan atok. Bulan puasa ni langsung tak balik kampung. huhu. takpe2, next week balik kampung dah. tinggal lagi beberapa hari jer. Sabar sikit. 

Minggu depan jugak nak scan baby. Yeay. Nervous sangat. (eh?). hehe. Tak sabar sangat nak tau jantina baby. Maklumla, barang-barang baby satu pun tak beli lagi. Hari tu pergi tengok-tengok kedai barangan bayi Manjaku di Bangi, barang-barang baby semua dah custom color biru dan pink. Macam mana nk beli. Bukan tak ada yang neutral color such as kuning dan hijau. Tapi tak banyak pilihan. Tambahan pulak yang biru atau pink tu lagi cantik-cantik design dia. Eeee tak sabar sangat nak beli. Terbeli jugak 3 pasang booties n mittens warna putih, kuning dan biru. Comel sangat. hehe..

Ok  lah. Sampai sini jelah membebel-bebel. Nak pergi masukkan duit raya dalam sampul sekejap. Tak sabarnya nak tunggu hari raya! Ewahhhh...^_^

Kepada pembaca-pembaca sekalian, aku ucapkan SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI dan Maaf Zahir dan Batin! :)

Untuk Anakanda Beta

Salam hi hello gentle readers. 

Yeap for those of you who wondered where I have been all these while, (macam la ada!), I have been PREGNANT! oh yess.. absolute yes. Pregnant lady, I am.

At the moment, I have a 5 months belly, carrying a-still-unknown-gender of little baby. The love of me and my husband. 

So far, the pregnancy for me wasnt easy, WASNT EASY at all. The first three (or three and a half?) months were total challenge. I lost six killos, even the chubby fat on my cheek is gone! Thus left me looking like a very sick lady with the sunken cheek. :( For info, I have never lost the chubby cheek since I was a baby. uhukk.. I lost a lot of muscle due to continuous nausea and vomiting. I was diagnosed with Hyperemesis Gravidarum, Ketosis, and dehydration. I had to take bottles of liquid by IV drip to maintain my body fluid. That, of course includes going in and out of the hospital few times. T_T

There are times when I thought I couldnt bear it all. Crying and throwing tantrum in the middle of the night, blaming everything. Gosh. I even cried at the clinic, to the nurses! haha.. Lucky the upside down emotion has gone away.. 

My appetite is now coming back, buuuut, it is Ramadhan. (Oh btw, Happy Ramadhan to all!). Therefore my weight gain progress is still slow. I'll try my best to complete Ramadhan as much as I can. Though I'm already skipped a few days. Huhu.Please pray for me.

                                                                     ************

Baiklah.. Seterusnya untuk anakanda bonda yang sekarang tenang di dalam kandungan bonda. Biarpun kelahiranmu masih lama jangkanya, bonda telah diberkati tuhan dengan merasakan kehadiranmu dalam hidup bonda dan ayahanda. Bonda telah pun merasa kasih yang amat dan tak pernah tertinggal, dalam setiap doa bonda, akan kesejahteraanmu anakanda. Bait-bait ini tercipta atas dasar kasih seorang bonda terhadap anakandanya. Bonda juga begitu. Menjelang kelahiranmu nanti, juga akan bonda dendangkan lagu ini untukmu saban hari. Hidup sejahtera anakanda beta, disulami kasih sayang kami. :) 

Takkan ku biarkan walau ribut menyentakmu yang tidur 

Datang petir menyambar, jengking dan ular~

Bonda takkan berundur

Nyamanlah anakanda beta

Mimpikan yang indah saja

Nanti bila kau buka mata 

Semua tak serupa

Kan ada satu ketika kau tak tahu mana nak pergi 

Jalan betul, anakanda tak jelas mata~ 

Ambil yang sarat duri

Hiduplah anakanda beta

Biarkan jasad yang luka 

Selama tuhanmu ada

Takkan engkau tercela

Ngeri, tak terbayang mata

Bonda takkan ada sentiasa

Nanti moga kau tak lupa

Bonda memujukmu, anakanda

Hiduplah anakanda beta

Biarkan jasad yang luka 

Selama tuhanmu ada 

Takkan engkau tercela

Nyamanlah anakanda beta

Mimpikan yang indah saja

Nanti bila kau buka mata

Semua tak serupa.....

All Izz Well~

Salam hi hello gentle readers, 

One month. One month of being a student, again. Life has been busy, yes. But hectic? Not yet. Still finding the right rhythm to go with the up-and-down momentum. So far my schedules would be meeting both of my supervisors, discussions, field testing, helping the juniors, and most important, literature research. In Malay language it is called  'Kajian Kepustakaan'. Funny eh? Seems awkward to use that phrase in daily life. Imagine I was talking to somebody, like:

"Eh aku busy la esok.. Sorry aku tak dapat join korang. Aku kena buat kajian kepustakaan sikit."

Okay. Weird enough. 

So, for this whole week, after an eye-opening discussions, I end up digging into related articles in TRB journal, from several years back, given by my sv. Oooh there are hundreds of them, and to differentiate which one is related to my research and which one is not...I feel like it takes ages. Anyway anyhow I'm done now. And I have 40 articles to be read. Ha ha ha. 40. It's okay. All Izz Well.

Since scholarship's thingy is still in the mist, my monthly allowance is yet to received. Therefore my parents, being generous as ever, willing-ly provide me with temporary stipend to fund my study. Heartiest gratitude to both of them.

So I bought the most important thing (I think) that a researcher like me should own. A printer. Yeay!

By all good means, I wish my journey to success would be smooth, and the challenges I will be facing in the future is bearable. Amen~

Oh, (also) thanks to this lovely guy for the day and night support. I love you.

Till then, readers.Ciao~

End of one journey just to start another

Assalamualaikum and hello gentle readers.

2012 passed and I had 10 posts. Seriously, like, JUST 10. Even though 2012 held so many significant events ever happened in my life. My journey of life. Okay, lets try to list them out. Just try . 

• Early in 2012, my wedding ceremonies were held. Twice, as usual Malay customs. Each for bride's and groom's side. 
• Mid 2012, I was super busy, restless, sleepless, but fearless in finishing up my research and thesis. 
• Mid 2012, My first ever presentation in conference. Korean Railway conference. And received an Outstanding Paper Award.  
• 3rd quarter 2012, my first bad encounter with colleague. (should i really state it here??-haha) . I guess I should. Because that was on of the most miserable time I ever had and one of the most horrifying experience I had to face. And it involves crying in front of my supervisor.  
• 3rd quarter 2012, my master thesis defense, my master thesis published, my graduation ceremony. yeay! Thats the end of my Master Degree's journey.
• 3rd quarter 2012, first grand honeymoon with beloved husband in Jeju Island. I will never forget that romantic summer holiday :) 
• 3rd quarter 2012, went back to Malaysia for good. For some reasons that I've been thinking and taking into considerations for quite some time, I decided to read my PhD here in my homeland. 
• 3rd quarter 2012, interview for PhD scholarship
• Towards the end of 2012, Second presentation in conference, ITC conference, reunion with the Koreans.
• Towards the end of 2012, succeed the interview. 
• Towards the end of 2012, family retreat ( 7 days) to Phuket, Thailand. Unforgettable memories.
• Towards the end of 2012, keep myself semi-busy preparing for documentation.

Okay, there ,  some of the highlights.

What about this past 2 months? 

• Early 2013, sitting for IELTS, succeed with Band 7 over 9 .  satisfied because I didnt study much.
• Early Feb 2013, attend Phd Research Methodology 5-day course
• Mid Feb, registered as a postgraduate student in UKM. The start of my PhD journey. 

There you go. See? I am currently a postgraduate student in UKM. Back to my student life. Shall I say Im getting used to it? Of course I should say that! I was in my kindergarten in 1993. And since then, i never spent a year not in school. The longest break was before registering for PhD i guess, in which i become a fulltime housewife- 5months. (But not exactly, I did some academic works, such as presenting in conference and writing paper-i may say).

Anyway, Alhamdulillah I started my my PhD journey about a week ago. That involves discussions with supervisors, preparing for grant, and a bit reading. 

What to Expect in a PhD journey

My supervisor on the offer letter was stated as Prof Amiruddin I, Dr Nur Izzi MY and Mr Khairul Anuar MN. But as Prof Raihan suggested and (I agreed), the department changed the order of my supervisor, putting Dr NIMY's name as the first supervisor. However due to unforeseen and really unfortunate circumstances, in the system , at the grad school, the order of the SVs still yet to be changed. There goes my first hassle. Anyway after all that I faced in Seoul, this is just a tiny little dot. 

At the moment, I want to equipped myself with as many literatures as possible. I wish to cover pilot study as wide as possible. Alhamdulillah, so far I'm happy with all my supervisors. Regardless of whose name come first. They are all determined and energetic. I'll keep praying hard for things to go smooth all the way. 

May Allah bless and ease our journey.

My all-the-time wish!

Cinta dan Kecintaan

" Ada kata Cinta dan Kecintaan. 

Cinta dan Kecintaan kita sampai mati. 

Aku mahu dan aku ingin;

Aku pinta dijajah cinta; 

dari kini hingga selamanya. 

Tapi cuma kamu,

Cuma cinta kamu.."

Susu kotak coklat naik harga :(

Hari ni peru sakit, kaki sakit, peha kejang, badan n tapak kaki kebas-kebas, kepala pening, mual-mual. Semua ni simptom2 hari pertama period.Kenapa kt Universiti tade sickbay? Untuk orang sakit + berada dalam kondisi terlemah setiap bulan ni berbaring, berehat? Kalau UKM dulu ada asrama kan, best je duduk asrama rest satu hari. Ya Rabb sakitnye lemahnye kaki tak dapat nk buat ape. baru kul 3 ptg. Ada lagi 8 jam nak duduk atas kerusi opis. :( 

Masa nk mkn ubat tad, pandang je ubat tiba-tiba tekak kembang. Dah banyak tahun ubat tu jadi teman setia setiap bulan. Dekat sepapan telan setiap bulan. Tapi setahun kebelakang ni  cuma mkn setengah papan sebulan. Tadi tekak mcm tak boleh terima lagi dah nk telan. Padahal sakit sgt nih. Pegi kt vending machine cari air susu kotak perisa coklat biar tak terasa pahit ubat. Bawa 1000 krw nk beli dua. Tengok-tengok harga dah naik jadi 600 krw satu kotak. Sambil menyumpah-nyumpah dalam hati, aku beli sekotak. Huh, kalau dulu bawa 1000 krw boleh dapat 2 kotak dah. Lepas beli terus minum+ dan makan ubat kat situ jugak sebab lepas tu nak pegi tandas takkan nak bawa air kotak masuk tandas. Minum sampai habis. 

Kat dalam tandas. Teringat. 

"Tadi masukkan 1000 krw sekeping, lupa amik baki 400 krw!"

p/s: Pinggang ke bawah masih kebas. 

APRIL? PECAH

Baru 5 April lepas bgtau my thesis topic pasal love wave.. Lepas kerah segala tenaga dan usaha dengan kajian literatur, tiba tiba 18hb dapat perintah tukar topik pulak. automated beamforming je. Start 18 hb ni. Pecah dan perintah. Pecah dan perintah. Pecah kepala dapat perintah. Secara automatikye suami tersayang saya kena buat programming untuk automation beamforming. And the other parts are on to me. So start 18 hb jugak, saya start menulis terus. Sambil menulis sambil buat kajian literatur, hebat kan? Tapi amik masa seminggu jugak  sebab banyak kot nak kene refer. Nak fahamkan theory bagai, nk tolong my husband tolong saya bagai. *Tolong suami yang sedang menolong saya* Hurmm.. Lepas one week Prof cakap tak cukup masa pulak so dia suruh lepas kan automation 100% pada abang. Secara tiba-tiba, En Suami masuk opis balik setiap hari tapi kali ni tanpa gaji cuma membantu isteri terchenta. Semoga jasa dan pengorbananmu mendapat balasan setimpal Mr Hubby :)..26 hb abg dah start wat connection dengan data acquisition system yang pada mulanya tak masuk dalam skop tesis pun. Ada je prof tambah sedikit demi sedikit. T_T. Sepanjang malam beliau bereksperimen dengan NI 6289. Nampak data macam ok. So sementara tunggu NI 9234 boleh lah familiarkan function program DAQ dengan device ni dulu.  Tiba2 esok harinya, 27 hb baru sampai NI device yang diorder untuk digunapakai dalam automation program.(Sambil jumpa Prof sambil beliau mintak chapter 2 untuk direview) Sepanjang hujung minggu we've been working on that device ( dan saya writing+study) tapi conclusionnye device itu tidaklah berapa baik berbanding dengan NI 6289. Alahai sayangnye sebab device tu sangat comel dan cute dan nampak solid serta very rugged, tade messy wires, tade power pun, cuma USB connector je. 30 hb saya exam yang mana saya tak boleh jawab dan rasa macam bodoh nk mampus. Prof pulak buatkeputusan nk pulangkn balik NI 9234 sebab kekurangan trigger function pada device tu jadi abang berpatah arah balik kepada device 6289. Dalam pada itu tesis chap 2 saya biarpun dah siap tapi gambar belum lengkap tapi saya dah pun halfway chapter 3 sebab tak sabar2 nk cerita chapter 3 (orang mcm ni pun ade) . Malam meeting Prof demand Chapter 2 dan 3 dihantar pada beliau sebelum Khamis. Baru 3minggu dapat topik baru tiba2 mintak 2 chapters apekehei, nasib baik gua laju. ceh ceh ceh . Memang nk laju pun i want to finish this whole stuff this very semester. Ape kes nk extend nk pecah otak dah ni. lepas Tu Prof suruh my husband lepas buat automation tulis sekali untuk chapter 4 siappp!!!.. Terkedu suami ku di situ. Ini tak adil ! bentak hatinya. Hehe taklah mana aku boleh dengar suara hati beliau. But I have another 3 chapters to go. Ya ke? Jap kira balik, Chapter 4 - automation & data interpretation, Chapter 5 - Inversion , chapter 6- Field Application, Chapter 7 - Conclusion. Owhh.. Chapter 1 - introduction . wakakaka. Chapter 1 dan 7 boleh satu hari kot. Chapter 5 dan 6? I aimed a wekk. 15 May, first draft. dan rehearsal. 17 May, saya bergerak ke Jeolla Nam-Do untuk conference Korean RailRoad Research Institute, untuk presentation pada hari keesokannya. Yer kawan-kawan, saya akan present paper. Semua orang dalam lab hantar paper tapi saya sorg je lucky one yg kena buat presentation. Dahla saya tengah sibuk sekarang ni. Lucky one.. lucky one... *sigh~
Oklah berhenti merungut sambung keje bai~

d.u.i.t

macam mana nk cut living cost tanpa perlu ikat perut? lain lain utilities dah guna tahap minima. dan i stop shopping for stuff other than food dah 2 months, since then jugak i just stay at home on weekends tanpa mengeluarkn duit tambang untuk ke mana mana...duit2, di mana kau duit~~ nak fikir tesis pun tak senang..

love wave?

sekarang tengah buat research tntg love wave so that boleh extendkn application teknik beamforming terhadap love wave rather than just rayleigh, untuk mendapatkn profile tanah terbaik. sesuai ke? layankan aje~~~

Everybody can do it, me too, right?

"I know you can do it. 

Trust yourself. 

I believe in your research capability.

.

.

.

.

We have to finish this on schedule, so please keep tight with the schedule."

I like LOVE very much. LOVE is pure. It comes as LOVE. Reflected as LOVE. Refracted as LOVE. Just pure LOVE. No any other interference with any kind of element. It is LOVE before, LOVE now and LOVE after.. 

I like LOVE too. I love LOVE .. :)

MATLAMAT

Matlamat jangka pendek (6 months period) : Menyiapkan master thesis. MENYIAPKAN. Dan hantar. Dan kalau paper tak sangkut, graduate sekali. 

Matlamat jangka panjang : Merangka matlamat hidup. Mungkin membina semula kehidupan. MUNGKIN. 

Rangka matlamat hidup : Menjadikan sesuatu yang digemari sebagai punca ketenangan dan kebebasan kehidupan. Bebas masa, kewangan, tekanan, emosi. -(RANGKA). 

Okay jom mula sekarang.

notakaki : tak faham takpe...