Success and failure

Success is going from failure to failure

without losing the enthusiasm

But I think I'm losing the enthusiasm. Days passed by and I'm still trapped. Trapped in my own mind. Struggling to swim through this suffocating ocean. I picture the bright future somehow it just seems too far away. I'm about to reach the finishing line, but the closer I go, the closer I am to the edge of breaking down. Where the hell is my spirits and belief and faith. To whom should I turn to. To share the sheds of tears.

Allahumma, Dear Allah,

aku berlindung padaMu dari rasa sedih dan gelisah;

dan aku berlindung padaMu dari sikap pengecut dan bakhil;

dan aku berlindung padaMu dari cengkaman hutang dan penindasan orang..