Thursday, August 1, 2013

Menjelang Aidilfitri 2013

Salam hai hello pembaca budiman!

Tinggal lagi enam hari je nak raya. Raya tahun ni berbadan dua. Nasib baik selera makan dah ada balik. Boleh la menjamu rendang, ketupat, lontong dan sebagainya. Tak sabar pulak rasanya. hehe.

Sepanjang bulan puasa ni, aku memang berterima kasih sangat kat Encik Suami sebab menyediakan kelengkapan puasa dengan penuh dedikasi dan tanggungjawab, memandangkan keadaan sang isteri yang mengandung kononnya dan terkedek-kedek melakukan semua aktiviti. Masak untuk puasa ni, ada la beberapa kali je boleh dikira dengan jari. Selebihnya beli lauk-pauk, atau berbuka rumah parents dan in-laws, serta berbuka di luar (pun cuma 2,3 kali). Sahur pulak Encik Suami dengan penuh tanggungjawab bangun menyiapkan (memanaskan-jika ada) lauk lebih berbuka dan buat air milo panas. Aku cuma turun makan jer. Kalau takde lauk-lauk lebih, kami makan roti bakar atau koko crunch jer. Itupun disediakan oleh Encik Suami jugak. Alhamdulillah, dia rajin membantu apa-apa yang patut kat dapur especially kalau basuh-basuh pinggan. Semoga amal kebaikan kamu Encik Suami diberi ganjaran setimpal dari Allah yer sayang. You made me love you even more *blush*

Sepanjang kehamilan setakat ni, tak boleh bayang jugak kalau takdenya encik abang. Mau terkontang-kanting dibuatnya. Entah-entah dah berputus asa. Encik Suami sangat sangat membantu dan dengan penuh sabar melayan sang isteri yang pelbagai ragam. Menjaga rumah yang memang aku dah tak kuasa nak ambil tahu lagi buat masa ni. Maklumlah, mengandung.. mengada lebih. Takpela, abang layan la kite, masa ni jer sayang..9 bulan lebih kurang. Lepas ni saya layan abang pulak selama 90 tahun atau lebih (kalau panjang umur). hehe.. Anyway terima kasih daun keladi buat Encik Suami atas layanan tip top beliau. Lain kali kalau mengandung lagi, layan lah macam ni lagi. :) 

Untuk raya tahun ni, bajet kami memang takde lah. Disebabkan belum dapat duit scholarship lagi (borang-borang aku tak hantar lagi..huhu teruknyeee). Maka baju-baju raya aku recycle ibu punye je. Berapa pasang entah ibu bagi hari tu.. Ada 3,4 pasang kot, semua yang ibu dah taknak pakai lagi. Aku pulak muat sebab perut dah mancung ke depan. Kalau tak, mesti la tak muat kan. Baju semua tu cantik-cantik, baru-baru lagi, ok lah kan. Encik Suami pulak pakai baju melayu tahun lepas je jugak. Cuma beli t-shirt dia sikit dan jeans sehelai. T-shirt dia yang sedia ada sikit sangat dan semua dah lusuh, kalau tak lusuh pun, dah tak muat. Tu lah, siapa suruh membesar dengan pantas. huhu.. 

Tahun lepas beraya di Korea. Tahun ni tak sabar nak beraya di kampung dengan atok. Bulan puasa ni langsung tak balik kampung. huhu. takpe2, next week balik kampung dah. tinggal lagi beberapa hari jer. Sabar sikit. 

Minggu depan jugak nak scan baby. Yeay. Nervous sangat. (eh?). hehe. Tak sabar sangat nak tau jantina baby. Maklumla, barang-barang baby satu pun tak beli lagi. Hari tu pergi tengok-tengok kedai barangan bayi Manjaku di Bangi, barang-barang baby semua dah custom color biru dan pink. Macam mana nk beli. Bukan tak ada yang neutral color such as kuning dan hijau. Tapi tak banyak pilihan. Tambahan pulak yang biru atau pink tu lagi cantik-cantik design dia. Eeee tak sabar sangat nak beli. Terbeli jugak 3 pasang booties n mittens warna putih, kuning dan biru. Comel sangat. hehe..

Ok  lah. Sampai sini jelah membebel-bebel. Nak pergi masukkan duit raya dalam sampul sekejap. Tak sabarnya nak tunggu hari raya! Ewahhhh...^_^




Kepada pembaca-pembaca sekalian, aku ucapkan SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI dan Maaf Zahir dan Batin! :)


Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Untuk Anakanda Beta

Salam hi hello gentle readers. 

Yeap for those of you who wondered where I have been all these while, (macam la ada!), I have been PREGNANT! oh yess.. absolute yes. Pregnant lady, I am.

At the moment, I have a 5 months belly, carrying a-still-unknown-gender of little baby. The love of me and my husband. 

So far, the pregnancy for me wasnt easy, WASNT EASY at all. The first three (or three and a half?) months were total challenge. I lost six killos, even the chubby fat on my cheek is gone! Thus left me looking like a very sick lady with the sunken cheek. :( For info, I have never lost the chubby cheek since I was a baby. uhukk.. I lost a lot of muscle due to continuous nausea and vomiting. I was diagnosed with Hyperemesis Gravidarum, Ketosis, and dehydration. I had to take bottles of liquid by IV drip to maintain my body fluid. That, of course includes going in and out of the hospital few times. T_T

There are times when I thought I couldnt bear it all. Crying and throwing tantrum in the middle of the night, blaming everything. Gosh. I even cried at the clinic, to the nurses! haha.. Lucky the upside down emotion has gone away.. 

My appetite is now coming back, buuuut, it is Ramadhan. (Oh btw, Happy Ramadhan to all!). Therefore my weight gain progress is still slow. I'll try my best to complete Ramadhan as much as I can. Though I'm already skipped a few days. Huhu.Please pray for me.

                                                                     ************

Baiklah.. Seterusnya untuk anakanda bonda yang sekarang tenang di dalam kandungan bonda. Biarpun kelahiranmu masih lama jangkanya, bonda telah diberkati tuhan dengan merasakan kehadiranmu dalam hidup bonda dan ayahanda. Bonda telah pun merasa kasih yang amat dan tak pernah tertinggal, dalam setiap doa bonda, akan kesejahteraanmu anakanda. Bait-bait ini tercipta atas dasar kasih seorang bonda terhadap anakandanya. Bonda juga begitu. Menjelang kelahiranmu nanti, juga akan bonda dendangkan lagu ini untukmu saban hari. Hidup sejahtera anakanda beta, disulami kasih sayang kami. :) 


Takkan ku biarkan walau ribut menyentakmu yang tidur 
Datang petir menyambar, jengking dan ular~
Bonda takkan berundur

Nyamanlah anakanda beta
Mimpikan yang indah saja
Nanti bila kau buka mata 
Semua tak serupa

Kan ada satu ketika kau tak tahu mana nak pergi 
Jalan betul, anakanda tak jelas mata~ 
Ambil yang sarat duri

Hiduplah anakanda beta
Biarkan jasad yang luka 
Selama tuhanmu ada
Takkan engkau tercela

Ngeri, tak terbayang mata
Bonda takkan ada sentiasa
Nanti moga kau tak lupa
Bonda memujukmu, anakanda

Hiduplah anakanda beta
Biarkan jasad yang luka 
Selama tuhanmu ada 
Takkan engkau tercela

Nyamanlah anakanda beta
Mimpikan yang indah saja
Nanti bila kau buka mata
Semua tak serupa.....





Friday, March 15, 2013

All Izz Well~

Salam hi hello gentle readers, 

One month. One month of being a student, again. Life has been busy, yes. But hectic? Not yet. Still finding the right rhythm to go with the up-and-down momentum. So far my schedules would be meeting both of my supervisors, discussions, field testing, helping the juniors, and most important, literature research. In Malay language it is called  'Kajian Kepustakaan'. Funny eh? Seems awkward to use that phrase in daily life. Imagine I was talking to somebody, like:

"Eh aku busy la esok.. Sorry aku tak dapat join korang. Aku kena buat kajian kepustakaan sikit."

Okay. Weird enough. 

So, for this whole week, after an eye-opening discussions, I end up digging into related articles in TRB journal, from several years back, given by my sv. Oooh there are hundreds of them, and to differentiate which one is related to my research and which one is not...I feel like it takes ages. Anyway anyhow I'm done now. And I have 40 articles to be read. Ha ha ha. 40. It's okay. All Izz Well.

Since scholarship's thingy is still in the mist, my monthly allowance is yet to received. Therefore my parents, being generous as ever, willing-ly provide me with temporary stipend to fund my study. Heartiest gratitude to both of them.

So I bought the most important thing (I think) that a researcher like me should own. A printer. Yeay!


By all good means, I wish my journey to success would be smooth, and the challenges I will be facing in the future is bearable. Amen~


Oh, (also) thanks to this lovely guy for the day and night support. I love you.



Till then, readers.Ciao~


Thursday, February 21, 2013

End of one journey just to start another

Assalamualaikum and hello gentle readers.

2012 passed and I had 10 posts. Seriously, like, JUST 10. Even though 2012 held so many significant events ever happened in my life. My journey of life. Okay, lets try to list them out. Just try . 

  • Early in 2012, my wedding ceremonies were held. Twice, as usual Malay customs. Each for bride's and groom's side. 
  • Mid 2012, I was super busy, restless, sleepless, but fearless in finishing up my research and thesis. 
  • Mid 2012, My first ever presentation in conference. Korean Railway conference. And received an Outstanding Paper Award.  
  • 3rd quarter 2012, my first bad encounter with colleague. (should i really state it here??-haha) . I guess I should. Because that was on of the most miserable time I ever had and one of the most horrifying experience I had to face. And it involves crying in front of my supervisor.  
  • 3rd quarter 2012, my master thesis defense, my master thesis published, my graduation ceremony. yeay! Thats the end of my Master Degree's journey.
  • 3rd quarter 2012, first grand honeymoon with beloved husband in Jeju Island. I will never forget that romantic summer holiday :) 
  • 3rd quarter 2012, went back to Malaysia for good. For some reasons that I've been thinking and taking into considerations for quite some time, I decided to read my PhD here in my homeland. 
  • 3rd quarter 2012, interview for PhD scholarship
  • Towards the end of 2012, Second presentation in conference, ITC conference, reunion with the Koreans.
  • Towards the end of 2012, succeed the interview. 
  • Towards the end of 2012, family retreat ( 7 days) to Phuket, Thailand. Unforgettable memories.
  • Towards the end of 2012, keep myself semi-busy preparing for documentation.

Okay, there ,  some of the highlights.

What about this past 2 months? 

  • Early 2013, sitting for IELTS, succeed with Band 7 over 9 .  satisfied because I didnt study much.
  • Early Feb 2013, attend Phd Research Methodology 5-day course
  • Mid Feb, registered as a postgraduate student in UKM. The start of my PhD journey. 
There you go. See? I am currently a postgraduate student in UKM. Back to my student life. Shall I say Im getting used to it? Of course I should say that! I was in my kindergarten in 1993. And since then, i never spent a year not in school. The longest break was before registering for PhD i guess, in which i become a fulltime housewife- 5months. (But not exactly, I did some academic works, such as presenting in conference and writing paper-i may say).

Anyway, Alhamdulillah I started my my PhD journey about a week ago. That involves discussions with supervisors, preparing for grant, and a bit reading. 

What to Expect in a PhD journey


My supervisor on the offer letter was stated as Prof Amiruddin I, Dr Nur Izzi MY and Mr Khairul Anuar MN. But as Prof Raihan suggested and (I agreed), the department changed the order of my supervisor, putting Dr NIMY's name as the first supervisor. However due to unforeseen and really unfortunate circumstances, in the system , at the grad school, the order of the SVs still yet to be changed. There goes my first hassle. Anyway after all that I faced in Seoul, this is just a tiny little dot. 

At the moment, I want to equipped myself with as many literatures as possible. I wish to cover pilot study as wide as possible. Alhamdulillah, so far I'm happy with all my supervisors. Regardless of whose name come first. They are all determined and energetic. I'll keep praying hard for things to go smooth all the way. 

May Allah bless and ease our journey.



My all-the-time wish!