Cinta dan Kecintaan

" Ada kata Cinta dan Kecintaan. 

Cinta dan Kecintaan kita sampai mati. 

Aku mahu dan aku ingin;

Aku pinta dijajah cinta; 

dari kini hingga selamanya. 

Tapi cuma kamu,

Cuma cinta kamu.."

Susu kotak coklat naik harga :(

Hari ni peru sakit, kaki sakit, peha kejang, badan n tapak kaki kebas-kebas, kepala pening, mual-mual. Semua ni simptom2 hari pertama period.Kenapa kt Universiti tade sickbay? Untuk orang sakit + berada dalam kondisi terlemah setiap bulan ni berbaring, berehat? Kalau UKM dulu ada asrama kan, best je duduk asrama rest satu hari. Ya Rabb sakitnye lemahnye kaki tak dapat nk buat ape. baru kul 3 ptg. Ada lagi 8 jam nak duduk atas kerusi opis. :( 

Masa nk mkn ubat tad, pandang je ubat tiba-tiba tekak kembang. Dah banyak tahun ubat tu jadi teman setia setiap bulan. Dekat sepapan telan setiap bulan. Tapi setahun kebelakang ni  cuma mkn setengah papan sebulan. Tadi tekak mcm tak boleh terima lagi dah nk telan. Padahal sakit sgt nih. Pegi kt vending machine cari air susu kotak perisa coklat biar tak terasa pahit ubat. Bawa 1000 krw nk beli dua. Tengok-tengok harga dah naik jadi 600 krw satu kotak. Sambil menyumpah-nyumpah dalam hati, aku beli sekotak. Huh, kalau dulu bawa 1000 krw boleh dapat 2 kotak dah. Lepas beli terus minum+ dan makan ubat kat situ jugak sebab lepas tu nak pegi tandas takkan nak bawa air kotak masuk tandas. Minum sampai habis. 

Kat dalam tandas. Teringat. 

"Tadi masukkan 1000 krw sekeping, lupa amik baki 400 krw!"

p/s: Pinggang ke bawah masih kebas. 

APRIL? PECAH

Baru 5 April lepas bgtau my thesis topic pasal love wave.. Lepas kerah segala tenaga dan usaha dengan kajian literatur, tiba tiba 18hb dapat perintah tukar topik pulak. automated beamforming je. Start 18 hb ni. Pecah dan perintah. Pecah dan perintah. Pecah kepala dapat perintah. Secara automatikye suami tersayang saya kena buat programming untuk automation beamforming. And the other parts are on to me. So start 18 hb jugak, saya start menulis terus. Sambil menulis sambil buat kajian literatur, hebat kan? Tapi amik masa seminggu jugak  sebab banyak kot nak kene refer. Nak fahamkan theory bagai, nk tolong my husband tolong saya bagai. *Tolong suami yang sedang menolong saya* Hurmm.. Lepas one week Prof cakap tak cukup masa pulak so dia suruh lepas kan automation 100% pada abang. Secara tiba-tiba, En Suami masuk opis balik setiap hari tapi kali ni tanpa gaji cuma membantu isteri terchenta. Semoga jasa dan pengorbananmu mendapat balasan setimpal Mr Hubby :)..26 hb abg dah start wat connection dengan data acquisition system yang pada mulanya tak masuk dalam skop tesis pun. Ada je prof tambah sedikit demi sedikit. T_T. Sepanjang malam beliau bereksperimen dengan NI 6289. Nampak data macam ok. So sementara tunggu NI 9234 boleh lah familiarkan function program DAQ dengan device ni dulu.  Tiba2 esok harinya, 27 hb baru sampai NI device yang diorder untuk digunapakai dalam automation program.(Sambil jumpa Prof sambil beliau mintak chapter 2 untuk direview) Sepanjang hujung minggu we've been working on that device ( dan saya writing+study) tapi conclusionnye device itu tidaklah berapa baik berbanding dengan NI 6289. Alahai sayangnye sebab device tu sangat comel dan cute dan nampak solid serta very rugged, tade messy wires, tade power pun, cuma USB connector je. 30 hb saya exam yang mana saya tak boleh jawab dan rasa macam bodoh nk mampus. Prof pulak buatkeputusan nk pulangkn balik NI 9234 sebab kekurangan trigger function pada device tu jadi abang berpatah arah balik kepada device 6289. Dalam pada itu tesis chap 2 saya biarpun dah siap tapi gambar belum lengkap tapi saya dah pun halfway chapter 3 sebab tak sabar2 nk cerita chapter 3 (orang mcm ni pun ade) . Malam meeting Prof demand Chapter 2 dan 3 dihantar pada beliau sebelum Khamis. Baru 3minggu dapat topik baru tiba2 mintak 2 chapters apekehei, nasib baik gua laju. ceh ceh ceh . Memang nk laju pun i want to finish this whole stuff this very semester. Ape kes nk extend nk pecah otak dah ni. lepas Tu Prof suruh my husband lepas buat automation tulis sekali untuk chapter 4 siappp!!!.. Terkedu suami ku di situ. Ini tak adil ! bentak hatinya. Hehe taklah mana aku boleh dengar suara hati beliau. But I have another 3 chapters to go. Ya ke? Jap kira balik, Chapter 4 - automation & data interpretation, Chapter 5 - Inversion , chapter 6- Field Application, Chapter 7 - Conclusion. Owhh.. Chapter 1 - introduction . wakakaka. Chapter 1 dan 7 boleh satu hari kot. Chapter 5 dan 6? I aimed a wekk. 15 May, first draft. dan rehearsal. 17 May, saya bergerak ke Jeolla Nam-Do untuk conference Korean RailRoad Research Institute, untuk presentation pada hari keesokannya. Yer kawan-kawan, saya akan present paper. Semua orang dalam lab hantar paper tapi saya sorg je lucky one yg kena buat presentation. Dahla saya tengah sibuk sekarang ni. Lucky one.. lucky one... *sigh~
Oklah berhenti merungut sambung keje bai~

d.u.i.t

macam mana nk cut living cost tanpa perlu ikat perut? lain lain utilities dah guna tahap minima. dan i stop shopping for stuff other than food dah 2 months, since then jugak i just stay at home on weekends tanpa mengeluarkn duit tambang untuk ke mana mana...duit2, di mana kau duit~~ nak fikir tesis pun tak senang..

love wave?

sekarang tengah buat research tntg love wave so that boleh extendkn application teknik beamforming terhadap love wave rather than just rayleigh, untuk mendapatkn profile tanah terbaik. sesuai ke? layankan aje~~~

Everybody can do it, me too, right?

"I know you can do it. 

Trust yourself. 

I believe in your research capability.

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.

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We have to finish this on schedule, so please keep tight with the schedule."

I like LOVE very much. LOVE is pure. It comes as LOVE. Reflected as LOVE. Refracted as LOVE. Just pure LOVE. No any other interference with any kind of element. It is LOVE before, LOVE now and LOVE after.. 

I like LOVE too. I love LOVE .. :)

MATLAMAT

Matlamat jangka pendek (6 months period) : Menyiapkan master thesis. MENYIAPKAN. Dan hantar. Dan kalau paper tak sangkut, graduate sekali. 

Matlamat jangka panjang : Merangka matlamat hidup. Mungkin membina semula kehidupan. MUNGKIN. 

Rangka matlamat hidup : Menjadikan sesuatu yang digemari sebagai punca ketenangan dan kebebasan kehidupan. Bebas masa, kewangan, tekanan, emosi. -(RANGKA). 

Okay jom mula sekarang.

notakaki : tak faham takpe...

Married!

Hi hello gentle readers.. Hello my blog! It has been a while. When is my last post? Was it last year? LAST YEAR? heh..

I AM MARRIED. Yeah. I like it very much when I say "I'm married." Sounds like " I'm a grown up, I am mature enough , I'm living my life truly ; and I have a man by me to stand together till the rest of my life (InsyaAllah)".. What an explanation! haha

Few, asked for pictures. I don't have the edited version with me, but the unedited are here in several folders. I wish I could share all, but you know I couldnt, it would take ages to upload them all. Hence I hope few should be fine. 

Traditional Indian Costume

Traditional Korean Costume

Hubby and Me : Malam Berinai, Traditional Malacca attire

My family in black

Atok was trying to sit there

Mom, Dad, Nek Busu, Tok Busu, Atok, nenek and Nek Che'Kah..

Us

Me : I feel funny doing this, dear
Dear : Hold your breath.. hold your breath.. 

I am happy with everything up until malam  berinai. After that night, I began to dislike everything. I hate the purple lipstick mak andam put on me. Above all. Above everything, the purple lipstick was the most horrifying. Sadly, even after changing my wedding dress to english blue gown, the purple lipstick was still there. What a horrible match purple lip and blue+white gown. Mak andam should know better. Bet she realized, just that she did not prepare an extra lipstick. Ntahapehape. 

Another thing, the dress was gleamingly beautiful. What a colour. But I couldnt keep up. The length, if u know what I mean. Smeared make up especially eye liner, due to extremely hot weather , also brought down my mood that day. I regret bought  the get-your-eye-big-lenses because I realized my eyes are already big and wearing those lenses are just making me look like a weirdo. Anyway, I dislike the make up on the day.. ~Sedih~

Very..very hot sun welcoming us and the rombongan

A sweet glance from me to u~

Dear : This way, this way
Me : My dear , look forward!

Dad and mom ; cheerish their memories

My family in purple

Lets RUIN the cake

Aloha!

sea, sand, you and me..

Welcome! This was where our wedding took place

Continuing after two weeks, wedding at my dear's side took place at Dewan Seri Perkasa,  Masjid Al-Imam Ash-Shafie, Taman Maluri KL.

That was a simple but nice wed, with "makan beradab" as its main event. So, we were glad, not tired, not even shed a single sweat! :P 

Husband, me and family, before ceremony

At the dining table.

Both families. Very nice colour blend~

Special bunting sponsored by our uncle

Husband, me, father and mother in-law

Husband, me and my in-laws

Ahahaha! What a surprise I managed to upload every event in one post! 

Enjoy the pictures!

Masak - masak : Daging Dendeng

Salam hai hello pembaca budiman..

Hari ni nak cakap pasal memasak pulak la.. Sebulan lepas my buddy ada request minta saya masakkan beliau daging dendeng. Teringin katanya. Dengan kehairanan saya bertanya macam mana rupanya daging dendeng? Kadang-kadang saya ni makan aje tapi tak tau nama makanan tersebut. Yang pastinya daging dendeng ni bukanlah popular kot di tempat saya atau dalam kalangan keluarga saya, sebab saya tak tahu! haha.. My buddy cakap makanan di majlis kahwin, buat saya terfikir, daging masak itamkah? Hurmm.. Walau bagaimanapun dek kerana beliau terinngin sangat, beliau mencari sesungguh-sungguhnya gambar daging dendeng untuk ditunjukkan kepada saya. Masih, saya tak berapa pasti. Kena tanya ibu samada saya pernah makan atau tidak. 

Dipendekkan cerita untuk tidak menghampakan keinginan beliau kami carilah resepi daging dendeng tersebut. Pada awalnya beliau memberitahu saya cara memasaknya adalah leceh, (perlu ketuk hirisan daging dengan batu lesung, perap dan sebagainya ) tapi ternyata resepi yang saya jumpa tidak meminta saya membuat seprti yang demikian. 

Pada pendapat syaa cara memasak daging dendeng adalah ringkas dan mudah. 

Tidak seperti masakan-masakan daging saya yang lain, untuk memasak dendeng saya tidak merebus daging sehingga empuk sebelum mula memasak. Ini kerana masakan dendeng memerlukan dagingnya digoreng garing. 

Maka waktu menyiapkan bahan pun dapat dikurangkan :) 

Mari kita tengok resepi : 

Bahan-bahan yang diperlukan adalah :

1. Setengah kilo daging
2. 2sb kicap 
3. 2sb gula
4. 4 biji tomato (tapi saya gantikn dengan sos tomato sebab di rumah saya tiada tomato dan cuaca terlampau sejuk menyebabkan saya tak terniat pun untuk ke kedai membeli tomato.. hehe~) 
5. 2sb jintan manis *
6. 1sb jintan putih *
7. 10 ulas bawang merah (saya pakai bawang holland-ni kot nama dia- sebab korea susah nk cari bawang merah. tapi sebab bawang holland besar gedabak saya letak dalam 3 biji kot -alamak tak ingat!)*
8. 3 sudu cili giling. Biasanya kt Malaysia ibu saya blend cili kering tapi kat sini saya pakai cli merah basah. Takpe kot.*
9. Halia sikit. setengah inci ke seinci macam tu.*

Okay cara- cara dia macam ni :

Mula-mula bahan-bahan bertanda * dikisar. Kemudian daging dihiris nipis-nipis, dan digaul-perapkan dengan bahan kisar tadi. Kalau hiris lagi nipis daging tu maknanya lagi garinglah hasilnya nanti. Saya dimaklumkan dari my buddy daging dendeng ni memang garing. (Again at this time I still have no idea pasal daging dendeng ni). Kemudian gorengkan daging yang dah diperap tadi, dan ketepikan. Ha. Bahan-bahan kisar tadi takla semua dicurahkan pada daging tadi, cukup sekadar nk perap, jadi lebihan bahan kisar tadi saya tumis. Kemudian masukkan kicap, gula, tomato , kemudian daging yang dah digoreng. Masak sampai kering. Warna masakan ni gelap je disebakan tindak balas kicap tadi. Disebab kan saya tak familiar dengan masakan ni , my buddy yang jadi tukang rasa. Dia kata ok, macam tu lah rasa daging dendeng.

Masakan ni rasanya manis-manis aje, mungkin gula dan jintan manis yang manis tu. Dagingnya pula garing sampai 'berkrup-krup' masa makan. My buddy sangat gembira sampai semangkuk dia habiskan. 

Dan bagi saya yang bukan peminat daging ni pula, biasa-biasa aje. hehe .. Saya rasa daging masak itam kenduri kahwin lagi sedap sebab lembut. Masakan garing-garing krup krup ni bukan favourite saya. Daging pun jarang-jarang makan. Tapi gembira tengok beliau suka. 

Saya bukannya tau ambil gambar. Tapi ni lah daging dendeng hasil masakan saya. Habis licin dah hehehe..

I'm so much in need of a getaway : ridiculous escapade!!

Salam hi hello gentle readers.. Been wanting soooo much to write since I don't know when. I have a lot of stories in list for the last two months but just didnt got a chance :(

What can I say, 2011 left with thousand bittersweet memories. May 2012 be a blissful year and brings belssings... :) 

At this moment, all I wanted soo much is to lay down on a really really big wide bed. A comfy one. Super comfy. Since November, most of my sleeptime spent on a piece of box. So sad.

Picture shows my 'bed' for the last 2 months .. It is pathetic isn't it?But what can I do what can I say, I was in the office 24 hours a day everyday. okay. sometimes minus 1 hour-go back and get shower. There was a time in December when I didn't shower for three days in a row and sleep like 3 hours on my 'bed' every nite. Again it is so pathetic!

We even went to field test on a super freezing day which drove me crazy....There is still one good thing, we got a chance to eat a yummylicious rice cooked together with oyster + oyster korean pancake at a very famous oyster restaurant there in Anseong. So i went crazy and frenzy : 

Satisfied with the yummylicious oystersssssss. marvellous!

Next, I already announced and invited my families, relatives and fellow friends to my you-already-know-wedding with dear Raja Hassanul, via FB few days ago. I wish you guys would be happy to attend and may your presence double the joy. Or at least, for those who unfortunately couldnt make it there, I  really appreciate your doa :)

Ceremony at groom's side will be held in Ampang on 4th of February..

I've been going through many-many-many sleepless nights, working very hard, eating very fast and spending very wise (almost none  - except for meals) . So I am beginning to lose conscious, I feel extremely exhausted, I get hungry easily! - every single second (impact from not chewing food properly), and becoming really broke. Why should I be broke, I spend wisely didnt I? But this semester we received no bonus due to no extra field test. We just work very hard in the office. And monthly pocket money goes to the wedding ceremony, and also, the gas and electric bill stakes super duper high due to the winter season. This make me realized that without bonuses and extra cash, I barely survive the winter! Hopefully things would be better in summer. I worked so hard yet still so broke and penniless, and I dont have time for myself even. I hate it so much and I'm struggling inside, persuading and convincing myself to just be patient and hang on. Please hang on.

I have a vacation for a month, to go back and get myself busy with the weddings and all. But report on weekly activities should still be submitted, so by the end of February I shall finish my thesis, complete with findings and writing. Everything. Should I work on the pelamin? Oh my this is so stressful..

All I want is to lay on peaceful sandy beach just relaxing and enjoy sun-bathing with nothing on my mind. - but now is a rainy season nadia! 

Or it wud be completely a great great great great  retreat to go away and hide in a room equipped with super comfy bed and pampers my abused self and mind with the best vacation ever. 

I would DIE to just pretending being a princess, even for a day.

Oh God BLESS anybody out there who presented me with this kind of gift! :D - dream continuesss.......-

I am still on track, keeping up and relying with faith. But I couldn't lie that I want to go back Malaysia so badly............


* Entri ini mengandungi banyak sungutan dan sungutan yang tidak sesuai dibaca oleh kanak-kanak yang bersekolah. Cuma rasa cambest bila tulis and spit it out. Allow me.. please.