Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Hadiah :)

Salam hai pembaca budiman,

Hujung minggu yang lepas adalah hujung minggu yang menyeronokkan. Walaupun, penat. Saya pergi Times Square hari Sabtu, dan shopping kat Yeong dengPo underground market. Ala2 mini Gosok Terminal rupanya. Baju murah2 dan tempat pun selesa. Kira happening la jugak. Tak puas jalan2 sebab pergi pun dah malam. Tapi takpe, lepas ni bole datang lagi cari barang :)

Ahad pulak berjanji dengan diri sendiri nak pegi ofis. Tapi tak janji pukul berapa. So lepas lunch pegi Yongsan tapi bukan pegi I-Park atau e-mart macam selalu. Kali ni kitorang jalan kaki jauh skit ke belakang Yongsan. Oh baru tau rupanya kat situ ada plaza elektronik. Lebih kurang macam Akihabara kt Jepun tu.. Tapi kat sini dekat Yongsan, atau spesifik nama dia Jeonja Land (Bandar Elektronik). Kalau bikt bintang ada Low Yatt Plaza, sini ada Jeonja Land, tapi bukan satu bangunan. Banyak betul building. lepas tu buat market mcm beberapa lorong yang jual brg elektronik sahaje. Baik dari barang2 komputer, games,  kamera, handphones, mp3, mp4 segala macam gajet, TV dsb. Bersinar2 jugaklah mata tengok benda2 tu sume. Paling tertarik sekali tengok XBox+Kinect weehuuu. Cambest seyh. hehe.. Tapi tak beli apa2 pun. survey je. Rasa macam nk beli pendrive 16 Gig sebab ,urah tapi tak jadi sebab macam bukan keperluan. :) 


Dah penat berjalan2 siap hujan panas sume redah (maklumlah Korea sekarang musim hujan, siap banjir2 bagai-eh lari topik), kitorang pun masuklah Yongsan i-Park. rasa aircond sket, nak cari makan, nak survey citer kat wayang, nak tgk harga barang dalam e-Mart pulak. Lepas habis2 cuci mata g makan Jango+bokembab. Jango tu belut, bokembab tu nasi goreng. Belut ni mcm banyak tulang pulak, rasa nk muntah bila makan. Padahal sebelum ni makan suke je T_T...

장어 : Jango : Belut





Tu bukan Jango yang saye makan sebab yang saya makan dah masuk perut Alhamdulillah, tapi tu la rupe Jango. Geli? Kalau tengok belut hidup geli la kot, bila dah atas grill tu, sedap je kekeke~

Lepas makan saje pusing2 dalam mall tiba-tiba nak dijadikan cerita terlalu kat sebelah section jam tangan Casio. Terkenang memori jam tangan lama Casio yang hilang kt tandas sekolah. *buat muka sedih.

Ini jam Casio dihadiahkan kepada saya masa kt UKM dan hilang 2 bulan lepas T_T




Walaupun banyak kali lalu kedai jam tapi saya tak beli jam tangan baru sebab berkabung atas kehilangan jam lama. Dan mungkin punishment kat diri sendiri kot. *sedih*


Tapi hari tu tak semena-mena ada orang cakap kat saya "saya nk belikan awak jam lah, pilih yang mana satu". 

Hu wah haha haha, saya pun tergedik2 kat situ tersipu2 kan. Tiga kali "tak payah", last sekali tuding jugak jari kat benda yang bersinar tu. wakaka~

:))

So dapat lah saya jam baru. Saya saaaaangat suka. dan saya saaaaangat -sangat suka jam ni  . Mood sangat baik sampai kan balik terus pergi ofis, terus siap checking paper beamforming, terus stay kt ofis buat kerja sampai pukul 3 pagi (tak sedar),. dan mood terus baik hari berikutnya, sampai sekarang. Walaupun hati resah gundah apa jadi dengan paper yg sy tengah tulis sekarang.


Terima kasih wahai pemberi jam. Sebab buat saya happy. :D



p/s : sweet lah kamu. >.<

Thursday, July 21, 2011

I think I wanna marry you




It's a beautiful night, we're looking for something dumb to do.
Hey, baby. I think I wanna marry you..


****

Is it the look in your eyes, or is it this dancing juice.
Who cares baby, I think I wanna marry you..


 


Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Berganding, beriring, bersaing-saing

Ajari kami bicara cinta. Yang boleh buat kami faham erti maksudnya.
Beri kami segunung kekuatan. Biar kami keluar dari selubung sembunyi. Gua sunyi. Menipu diri.

Kami cuma anak tersepit. Dalam jaring yang berbelit. 
Sokong kami bertatih, sembilan bulan berlatih.

Kotak-kotak minda kami sendat. Jiwa kami padat. Hati kami sarat. Cinta itu benar berat.
Dan kerana ia berat, seorang kami patah. Maka kami menyokong. Berganding, beriring, bersaing-saing.
Sambungan itu tegal biasa, rapi lekatnya, padan coraknya. 
Oh, kasihan si dia!

Separuh badannya terlilit benang merah di sana.
Sebelah kakinya terikat rantai besi di sini.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Listen to me, Dear Diary

Dear diary,

I don't know who else should I talk to, I just feel so confused right now.
I think I am a mess, when the battle keep choosing me over and over, and I'm almost out of breath trying to fight and win. Oh I must tell that  I usually finally survived, but with permanent major damage. Damage that can't be seen but it's there, cause I can feel it.
How does it feel, when you give your very best searching,  yet still stuck nowhere? Like there stood a very huge boulder in the middle of my way. And I no more have the strength to move it away, neither can I find any single hole to bypass the hurdle. I feel like the world collapsing. I feel like quitting. To God who always hear prayers, please grant me with the wisdom to see the light that could ease up my journey.

And tell me how. How can I raise tiny little cute kitten if I am allergic to them. And what I really want is to live in the aquarium with the colourful fishes. With the fact that fish is kitten's food and they forever cannot live together. Yeap I am confused.

And my heart, dear diary, prefers to be there over here. 


I may not losing hope yet but this is a despair. What a psychological react and advice could be the best remedy for this? Would you mourn and shed tears together with me? Would you pat me on my back, stroke my forehead and gently coax me to stay put and stand still? Would you be nice and tell me stories of wisdom, lift my spirits up? Or would you slap me in my face, wake me up from this pitiful thing I cuddled in?

Whatever it is, dear diary. I am a bit happy, just to talk and you're listening. Although I deeply wish you can give me your warmest embrace at this moment. :'(

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Workaholic

Just great. Except for 3@4 days, from the begining of June until now, I am still stuck at the office at 1.30 am. And there is this hopeless, useless dream. Nothing seems like they are  gonna end pretty soon. Just like previous, another night , spend in front of desktop. If only my computer can talk, it probably shouting at me by now.



Workaholic, am I?

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

breaking the habit

Memories consume  like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again

You all assume
i m searching in my room
unless i try to start again

i dont want to be the one the battles always choose
cuz inside i realize that i am the one confused

i dont know what's worth fighting for or why i have to scream
i dont know why I instigate
and say what I dont mean

I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight

Clutching my cure , I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more than anytime before
I had no options left again

I don't want to be the one the battles always choose
Cuz inside I realize that I am the one confused

I dont know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate and say what I don't mean

I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit, tonight

I'll paint it on the wall
Cuz I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends

I dont know what's worth fighting for or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity to show you what I mean

I dont know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight.


Friday, July 1, 2011

i want to be a teacher

Saya nak tukar bidang. Saya tak nak amik dinamik tanah. Saya taknak dengar suara dari tanah. Saya taknak main frekuensi mekanisma tanah. Saya taknak geoteknik. Saya takmau kejuruteraan awam. Saya taknak engineering pun. Saya taknak faham teknik dan teknikal. Saya bukan orang teknikal. 

I want to take arts. I want performing arts. I want to work behind the stage. I want acting. I like singing. I want to learn language. Languages. All different kind of languages. I want to mix with people. I want to manage things. I like secretarial work. I love liase with people. I really prefer living things rather than virtual, not-living things. I want real, original stuff. I love to talk, i love to write. I think I am good at them, even not so great. I want to learn and teach English. To the kids, to people. I want to be a teacher. 


There are a lot of things that I am not great of, but I love them. There are so many things I can do, without feeling forced to do. 

What I regret is why, there are still something that I need to do, that I dont really fancy at. Things that I am not great of either, but maybe good at them. But those things I am doing is bringing me no happiness. 

When can I stop doing what i need, and start doing what I want.

If time cannot be reversed, can it just be stopped? So that I can just start over, again?